I Want To Be

I want to be everything my parents weren't. I want to be successful. I want to go my own way and not make the mistakes they did. I want to be myself. I want to quit being alone. I want to be everything that seems to be out of reach. I want to be a hero. I want to be the best I can be at everything I do.

I can't have what I want. Well not right now at least. It's close I can feel it. I made it to the top in what I love most.  It's lonely at the top. But I love it up here. I can see so far out and around me. I can see the people trying to get to where I am. But no one seems able enough to make it the last little bit. so It's lonely up here. But I want to be at the bottom again. It's more about the journey than the final destination.

I want to be a loser so I can sympathize with the weak. I want to be the best and then the very next moment the worst. All so I can know what it's like to lose everything. Maybe I would learn to feel. I am an empty shell.

I want to be a leader. I want to teach people to better themselves. It seems pointless because I don't even know what I'm doing. I want to lead people to their destinies. I want to be that person that everyone looks up to and trusts to get them to their final goal.

Everything I want to be will make me the person I want to be.

Strong.
Resilient.
Understanding.
Humble.
A Hero.