A poem I guess?

These days all we do is take static to the brain

And let it drain... To oblivion

Walking on paper thin... ice 

Praying in the name of Christ 

To feel heard 

When all we are is just a herd... Of cattle

So saddle up 

Face your fears 

Look for that release 

And notice you're on a leash... Tied 

By hate and try and find 

A simple release..

One that takes you away from that mediocrity... 

That you call life 

Rain storm

How can some say they love you for years and then desert ya

It comes with mental turbulence head up in the cumulus 

Blaming the weather or whatever on her moodiness

My main storm but I'm barely on her radar

So my heart sinks or the pain floats

I'm in a shit storm shoulda wore a rain coat

The clouds breaking but I can tell that it's over 

Cause she's my sunshine but I'm catching melanoma 

So let the rain come down

Let it fall let it fall

Where??

Red clouds, blue lights, purple haze clings to the night

One breath, sunset, left hand clutched to the chest

Fading screams, daydreams, praying that it's all make believe

Old man, listen, radio transmissions

Heavy heart, cold feet, pandemonium in the streets

Uptown, sirens sound, world turns upside down

Old love, new fear, separated unclear

Pay phone, dial tone, maybe she's safe at home

No clouds, no lights, his gaze clings to the night

Long roads, ash sky, not a friendly face in sight

Magpies, bones dry, not a tear left in his eye

No space, no time, only living to survive

No help, cards dealt, every man fends for himself

Deep sighs, wide eyes, mushroom clouds in the sky

And the world keeps falling down 

Misplaced

My eyes are swollen because I can't have you around

But nothing to do, nothing to say 

because after all I pushed you away. 

It's all slipping away from me. 

my heart is heavy and it keeps me to the ground. 

I can be anything you want me to be. 

If you could forgive me now it would probably be to soon. 

You're slipping away from me.. 

She

I fell in love with the way her eyes shine when she laughs. The way she looks after you kiss her. I fell in love with the way she shivers when I touch the small of her back. I fell in love with the way she sings out of tune, the way she smiles, and the way she dances. 

She fell in love with the stupid way I talked. The way I thought I could rhyme anything with her name. She fell in love with the way I walked because I held myself like a king. She fell in love with the way I made her feel, because no one had done it quite like that. She loved the way she could make me laugh by touching my side.

We loved the times we spent together because we were blind to the world around us. We loved the good times because no one wants to remember the bad times. We loved holding hands like it was our last life line and kisses were like being reborn again. We would get lost in time laying next to eachother because we were one with the stars.

But She twisted my insides till they ripped. I bled out on her porch begging to be saved. She said she never really meant it when she said I love you because I'm just not that person and you have to many problems to bring me with you. She stole my heart and refused to give it back. I was dying and she didn't care, she kicked me when I was down. I couldn't breathe and I couldn't stand, I was dead before I even knew it. 

The man in the mirror

Tell the boys it's just the man in the mirror...

To me this means let them know that the only one they can count on is the one they see looking back in the mirror. That man you see in the mirror can never let you down unless you let yourself down. What you see is what you get. Make that man someone you can rely on. 

Just my thoughts about that today. 

Drive

I go crazy because I'm not where I want to be. I will only have satisfaction when I am on the threshold of hell and prevail. There is nothing more satisfying than proving people wrong. Especially the people close to you. They believe in you but they always say you can't do something. If this doesn't drive you forward you are a lost cause. I'm afraid that if it doesn't nothing in this world can motivate you.